Being Twenty-Something They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch vwith are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere but that they are as confused as you. You look at your job...and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly addingthings to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling onto thepast with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyonedecent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you lovesomeone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you aredoing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One-night-stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talkwith your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!


5 comments:
Good luck with that decision Lauren!! You just have to trust your heart and follow it. If you want my opinion....you do right? LOL After going to school for so long, and being so successful with your studies, it might be fun to start a new chapter in your life. :)
I remember that time after I graduated and going out looking for a "real" job. That was fun!
Gosh, I totally remember those 20-something days of indecision! And I will tell you, the decision making about your life doesn't get much easier in your 30's ;-) Good luck on your decision - as long as your heart is in it, it will be the right one.
you should get a PhD...at Davis! HAHA, I love you dear. Its a tough decision, no choice but to follow your heart (which I am sure will lead you to me...)
xoxoxo
or your heart can lead to us...or Davis. i just love stephanie thinking! its definitely a lot to think about, i wish i could help you more, but only you know and feel whats best. remember you are a success not matter what your decision is, meditate and the Good Lord will guide you.
I love that "Quarter Life Crisis" paragraph- it's helped me in my mid twenties and I still refer back to it. :)
Let me know what the grad plans are, i'd like to attend (yes! I mean it!!). Especially since I missed your Cal Poly grad. :(
Luv you much Sissy!!
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